Troy--putting your "stuff" out there and sharing it for the first time is terrifying. Then add to that mis the depth of your pain, well I understand how you'd want to leave.

Try to just sit with the knowledge that people have not turned away from you here, if anything they've turned towards you and embraced you.

I hope you'll stay. If your words are that troubling to you, Doc John will remove them. It's ok.

But I also wanted to add, there are vets out there who are looking for a home too. If they stumble upon your words, their relief that they've found someplace they might finally belong (if in fact any of us ever do) will be overwhelming and that is a good thing.