Another good session. We actually didn’t do much. I brought in my wedding album and we went through that. I showed her a childhood photo of something I mentioned last session. We talked about her telling me when health things come up. And she explained why she’s taking off a Friday in August. I did cry when she talked about the vacation and then the holidays. We did my self care plan. And then our connecting question was to describe what you thought your wedding dress would look like when you were growing up.

I’m trying to keep the sessions easy. I think it’s because I just want to reconnect and settle back in, but I wonder if a part of me is avoiding doing actual therapy. I kind of feel like I’m suppressing my emotions too. I told L that like the anger iceberg analogy, my words are the tip of the iceberg but underneath is full of emotion and energy. And I’m scared. Scared of the push and pull and how intense it is inside me. Scared of losing control. And scared of the pain that everyone knows exists.