I'm sorry it's still an uphill battle for you @Autumn88. It is good you are taking positive steps though.

I have guilt too when eating, some days more than others, sometimes not much at all.

These past 2 days I have been good to my body though and have not gone jogging but done 2 gentle pilates videos which are much shorter time than jogging and tons easier on my body though I burn way less calories with pilates. I do love the way I feel after pilates especially since the videos I do have stretching at the end.

Every day I am able to do pilates instead of jogging is something of a victory for me. I suppose we just have to take the small wins even when they make us feel guilty, lazy, afraid we'll suddenly wake up fat.