I can't go into why because it would take 15 minutes to read but I am sad and afraid tonight. Sad because of something that has happened and afraid that something very bad may happen. My dysfunctional family is rearing its' ugly head again. Oh and angry. Can't forget that. All that I'm feeling and worrying about tonight is because of decisions someone else has made and they hurt me and my mother. What's more handling them means I'm going to hurt my mother with the words I have to say and there is little I hate as much as hurting my mother.

I wish my therapist worked more days per week. What's worse is that he moved me from Tuesday to Thursday next week so I have a week before I can talk to him about this. He doesn't work Mondays or Wednesdays so I'm just glad I got an appointment for Thursday.

I hate this whole thing.