Dear RC,

What were you playing at this afternoon?
I tried to let you in and you indicated that I'm doing something wrong here?

I definitely felt the full weight of my grief this evening.
Going to spend some time with your source material this week.

Let's see where I land.

Now isn't the time for me to change my support system any more than it already has.

Is there something wrong with wanting to feel safe in a time of upheaval?

Imagining a letter from my future self is hard when this 'moment' demands so much of me.

Of course, I could be touching your stuff.

You are the only person who can see both angles.

I don't want to feel Rage towards anyone, but he hurt me deeply.

I am still figuring out how remembrance works with a side of F you.