Why does everything suck so much. I don't think we can afford a dog but honestly I'm not sure I'm safe alone. It'll take a long time to train her for what I need. We wanted to wait until things we're more stable but I just want to sleep but I can't, not forever or anything just until this passes. I feel nothing but so close to tears. I want off medication I don't like this halfway ****. I'm worried I'll neglect the puppy because it takes effort.