I hear you @Jade345 we can pick our friends but we are born with our family. It is nice that you have music to help you feel a connection to self worth. Can you play music at home without interference?

I like poems. You can post one here if you care to but we also have a dedicated forum at MSF for Creative writing https://mysupportforums.org/creative-corner/ You can post as often as you like.

We also have a forum for Survivors of Abuse if you feel that you want to read others post about that or post a thread yourself. https://mysupportforums.org/survivors-of-abuse/

I am sorry that you have a challenge at home. If it helps to share here, many people have suffered mental health challenges and do not have stigmas about those. I hid my mental health challenges from my family because they just did not understand and were worried what the neighbors would think.

I know French is not a fun thing for you to use because of the reactions of your father but someday French or English may be something that will help support yourself.

It is not easy being a teen alone in this world and so if things do not work out for alternativees you are thinking about you could use the next 4 years as a training ground to help you learn about difficult situations.

I am sorry there are no easy answers to your situation but we do want to hear about your story. Many people read your posts even if they do not reply and your story is an important one for you to tell. But also it is important that if we cannot change the situation that triggers us, to work out an effective strategy and ways to cope with it.

Feel free to continue to ask questions and give us updates on how you are doing.

With kind regards
CAMDC

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