I realize now I had not been taking my optional 50 mg Seroquel (two 25mg tablets) either. By the time I missed ONE morning dose of meds and 50 mg Seroquel, blackout psychosis was starting for me. For awhile there, it felt like Nammu, unaluna, crazy hitch & I may have been the most stable people on this entire board; I had been stable over 6 months, having 5 min. pdoc appts. recently b/c I was SO stable since Nov. 2024. I went into mania & nearly psychosis last year in July & constant SI depression late Nov. 2024. By yesterday, if things hadn't started improving, H & my daughter were driving me straight to the psych ER. Isn't that scary?!

Oh, and I slept like a log last night. I should NEVER even go over 24 hr. without sleep, let alone one SAD lamp session b/c at that point I need a major psych ER run! When you are living with your family, you could even lose them all by then if you have 1 manic/psychotic run, and I only live with 2 people, H and my daughter who could remotely understand my situation!

At one point there, I understood no one but GOD himself & I could understand my exact situation! Other than this board at MSF, of course