I only now realized that at least I am posting my every single thought here instead of burdening H & my daughter with it. It's progress, but slow. It is helping to do that b/c here no one in my actual real life are screaming at me and haven't snapped at me today. (My pics too are real, all the art, pics of myself, cats, etc.) It helps my thoughts not cycle as much b/c I can come back here & read what I wrote b/c at least I have told somebody on an online forum about it, so I can try to hold my family together too.