I honestly don't know how I'm not consistently (if ever "truly") manic. My manic symptoms only manifest at night (and I do have a lot of outbursts during the day) and they feel more like PTSD-panic or BPD-splitting when it happens rather than true bipolar mania. Not on any mood stabilizer right now, technically on two antidepressants (trazodone and mirtazapine) and Straterra which can cause mania. I read sometimes mild dissociation can manifest as feeling tired randomly, so maybe my "not manic" times are when that's triggered in that way. I don't know.

I feel like I'm only calm right now because I had a shot but only one shot and as the sun is starting to go down and I'm about to piss that out I do feel myself revving up a lot.