This doesn’t have much to do with virtual sessions. And I understand it might not fit for you. Have you taken a grief break? From what you write, it seems like you are constantly processing whether in or out of therapy. That takes a lot of work and effort. I can only imagine what you’re dealing with is so so heavy on your heart and soul. So I’m just wondering if you can ever give yourself a break. And if you can, maybe this is a good time to do that since virtual kind of forces you to not process, at least with your T.

Please disregard if this is totally off base!