I kinda feel like I'm in a depression? I haven't showered in a week and I'm not eating much but I'm working out a ton and sleeping a lot. My visible moods are fine and so is my anxiety. I just feel blah.

I think I'm going to get off my *** and take a shower right now. My therapist talked about intuitive showering one time.

My shower was good. As soon as I got my clothes together and went into the bathroom I felt fine. Idk why it is so hard for me all of a sudden

Crookshanks hissed at me again for the second time in a month or so. I wasn't doing anything. I don't get why he doesn't like me. He loves my mom, and Gary is always climbing on me and meowing in my face but Crookshanks has never cared for me.

I also just found out what my favorite song Little Talks is about and now I'm just like wtf.

I texted my mom and told her in code about the bleeding and she wants me to see a gynecgolgist. And I'm like no... I know they are respectful but I don't want them being like "the guy wirh the hoo hah is back."

So I'm trying convince my mom to message my endocronoogist or some **** like my messed up intestines are bleeding.

My mom said she'll tell my GI if it could be related and then have me see the gyne

My stomach never did get better today. I just ate pudding and yogurt

Also my knee is still going crazy and giving it rest days and tylenol and icy hot arent doing much.