@Nammu: I am glad to hear that i am not the only one who gets the narcissism! I think i am the greatest artist in the world! Then i come down and see it was all amateurish sshhiitt. Yeah, i only seek help for the depression too. The hypomania is fine with me, except for the sleep deprivation and flakiness, but i seem to have a sense of humor about being awake for 46.5 hours at a time nonetheless.

My home gets chaotic too. I had to have a cleaning lady in recently, my episode was so intense. My bedroom was piled a meter high with junk. I had to crawl to my bed. Everything i owned was on the floor. I had to wade thru the hallway and kitchen. It took the cleaning lady ten hours over three days to clean up.

I am overjoyed to have a clean orderly home again. The mobile crisis team hooked me up with this extraordinary cleaning lady. If nothing else, it was worth it to connect with them just for that. And now i know the cleaning lady is available if my home ever gets out of control again. And i won't wait seven months next time!