It definitely does get easier. I've been si free now for something over a year and a bit - I don't really keep super close count either. I still get urges, they're worse when I'm struggling to want to drink, but I can usually talk myself out of them pretty quickly. And yeah - I still do kind a miss having visible scars. I always used to cut in geometric patterns, and I used to like just tracing over the pattern on my arms. I have some very faint scars on my arm - I can only see them because I know where to look. I find seeing them is oddly reassuring. It reminds me that I'm not in that really bad place anymore and that I don't need to hurt myself in order to deal with my feelings.

--splitimage