You don't have to explain it to me. I'm not saying that I'm quite as low as you are at the moment, but I grasp your general idea. You're right in how you say your wife would take it, if you told her. I think many spouses would take it that way.

I think it's not unusual to find yourself wondering: "Is that all there is?" Life at times can seem like a dull, tedious existence. It's good that your commitment to your wife is strong, and it brings some meaning to your life. Was there a time when you were happier? If so, what changed?