It's my birthday in ten days on the 21st. I'll be 59. I haven't been as circumspect this year as other years regarding keeping it a secret because it falls on the day that my support group has a picnic at a beach. It's unfortunate because it means that when no one does anything for me i will know it's because they don't care. Always other years i kept it a secret and could tell myself no one did anything for me because they didn't know. I got excited and told people this year. It was a mistake. Well, i'll keep it quiet from now on and people will forget. I'll buy myself flowers at the grocery store and that will be good enough. I had great birthdays when i was young, my mom really made a big deal and i treasure the memories. That's more than some people get.