Saw my pdoc today. I told him about the SI and he asked me what I thought these thoughts might be from. In his office, I couldn't think of a cause. After thinking about it more, I do think some of it is just a chemical imbalance but part of it is because I don't feel like I matter so what's the point of sticking around. Feeling like I don't matter fuels the heavy weight of loneliness I already have. Between this and the depression I've been experiencing, he agreed to me upping my seroquel from 12.5 mg to 25 mg. He also was trying to think of some other things we might be able to do if this doesn't work. I go back in a month.

Today was the first full day of school-It went well.