Renewed my license today. At the DMV because I wanted a new picture. I LOATHE the DMV though. I've been anxious for the past four days, like anxiety diarrhea anxious (sorry for THAT tmi). Meeting with my parents is on Thursday. We're meeting at an Indian restaurant. I feel like I'm going to be sick just thinking about it!

It's also really hot in here and on top of it being hot in here I'm having a hot flash. 🥵 I'm dying here man! (Not literally obviously.)

Tomorrow is my birthday. I'll be 43. Just the thought is making me feel like I'm going to start crying! I don't want to deal with all this getting old shyt, like perimenopause and fudging mammograms and cataracts and whatever else is going to come up! I'm not ready yet!

So I'm planning on eating ice-cream in the dark apartment, on the couch, doing nothing. Well, actually I'm going to be doing something (when I'm not pigging out on ice-cream). I'm going through my daughter's novel and editing it for her. Goal is to have it done by the end of the week. I'll have it done tomorrow night I'm sure, since I'm not doing anything tomorrow (besides eating ice-cream and listening to Sleep Token and crying).

Why have they NOT come out with a med that STOPS hot flashes when you're having one?! Like, that you can take when you get one and then it goes away! THIS ONE IS NOT GOING AWAY! IT DOES FOR LIKE FIVE SECONDS THEN COMES BACK WORSE!!!!!

Fudge!!!!!!