July is just around the corner and I feel so sick to my stomache.
The accident happend on July 23rd.
I've had problems on the past with the anniversry but something tells me I'm going to have more problems this year then the past three.
This is the first year I have been rembering things and having flashbacks.
I don't know what to do, I'm really scared because it's starting to affect my job and my everyday life worse then it usually does.

I just don't want to face the world anymore, I'm so jumpy, my job is to damn noisy. Nowhere is safe, I don't know what to do.
I've gotten to the point that when I'm driving I have this constant wound up ball of anxiety in my chest and I can't drive very much without starting to cry. It's starting to get really hard to hide all of this from my parents and close friends.

I just want to go hide under a rock until July is over with.