I'm glad to hear that you're feeling better...I have a lot of days where I don't feel "fully well"... there are so many things going on these days that could produce an anxious feeling in even the most even keeled individual! You seem to believe that some of what you're feeling is irrational,or at least "unpleasant" I'd say that given the circumstances we find ourselves in that it may be quite natural to feel a sense of anxiety about life in general! Personally, Jesus is my answer to all of the "what if's" in life, I realize that not everyone buy's into this but I can tell you it works very well for me.