Thanks to all of you, really appreciate your hugs and support.
I'm not seeing a therapist... I tried, but I didn't feel comfortable with her and I ended up getting more depressed because I was anxious and not wanting to go to my sessions etc.
I don't know wether I want to see another one, I don't want to be reminded of bad times, I just want to move forward and I'm not sure they can help.
I do see a social worker at my old high school though who's been very friendly and helpful (she's also a qualified counsellor).

Thanks again, Molly