Hi All, I am new here. I'm 50 and a white male in the U.S.. I have had the same psychiatrist for years now and he has pointed out some very antisocial tendencies in my past and present behavior. I took the Hare's Checklist multiple times and regularly score around 35. So, I am wondering what help I can get.

the psychopathy was much more present in my childhood up to my 20s. There were a lot of police contacts then and I had a very bad temper. I could not keep jobs and frequently was fired due to interpersonal conflicts, mainly with co-workers and bosses. I especially hated female bosses and co-workers. It was related to a poor upbringing and relationship with my narc. mother. But I blamed her and society for my poor impulsivity and behavior.
To this day I frequently have impulses to harm others or their property. I don't care how my behavior affects others either. I do what I want to, when I want to, unless it's highly illegal. And even then...if I can find a way to get away with such acts, I tend to do them.
I got into trouble (again) with my apartment managers last year due to smoking cigs. and marijuana in my apartment. (We live in a smoke-free complex) A neighbor reported me to them. I then confronted the neighbor about her noise at times. Things got really bad then and the manager wanted me to leave.

The good thing about that: I did stop drinking and smoking weed and have been clean and sober for about 9 1/2 mos. now. It's challenging to say the least, but easier over time. I don't do as many antisocial things. But I don't date anyone or want a partner. I would not want to kill anyone, bc it's too much of a bother/hassle and too high a risk of getting caught.

That does not stop the violent fantasies though. I also went no contact with my abusive family over 3 mos. ago. I wanted to know if I am a psychopath (still). I did frequently get into fights as a kid and young adult and abused small animals even up to my 30s. Most women are pretty much instantly creeped out by me. Though I was a lot more better looking and charming in the past.

Don't know what else to say. Just wanted to intro. myself.