I'm just getting my bipolar under control and the fighting here at the building is not helping. Today i socialized in the dog park with the two women who are at odds at different times and it was very stressful. F is asking me for support at a time when i need to focus on myself. If anything *I* need support. I texted her the number for the mental health crisis line. I look forward to not hearing about any more of the drama.

I keep my bipolar secret but i have confided in F. She hasn't ever offered me any support about it or expressed any interest in it. Perhaps that is just the nature of an older woman / younger woman relationship. I certainly don't need anything like that at the moment.

The other woman, "A," was effusive today in a way she hasn't been in the past and i feel somewhat that they are fighting over me. I just don't want to be involved.

In other news, i dressed attractively in my long curly brunette wig and got some attention from an age-appropriate man in the lobby. I was so uneasy tho i fled. I'm not sure i want a partner. I *AM* sure i do NOT want to date, so i guess that's that. If i find a partner, it will be thru my daily living, which means my chances of getting struck by lightning are greater than my chances of finding a partner.