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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte
Sometimes I just, I don't know, wonder how I would be if I wasn't taking all these meds. Like, would my personality be different? Would I be more inspired? More creative? Less tired? I asked my husband and he simply said I'd be locked up. I was like, jeez, thanks. Lol.
To clarify, I'm not going off any of my meds... it's just... Sometimes I wonder. Do I really need all of them? What would I be like without them? Would I be the real me? Is the me I am now somehow a false me?
Does anyone else ever wonder this?
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I often felt that way for a long time. But the last time I went off I was a mess. I spent over a year mostly in bed, only going out to get food and litter for my cat. I was very paranoid and would only leave at 2 am when it was safe! I never collected my mail in all that time. The post office stopped delivering to me and just collected at the post office. I ended up going to a psych emergency place. The pdoc there was wonderful and he started me on the meds that I still to this day take. I’m finally stable and though there’s times I think of going off and even times I think of moving. It’s just a fleeting thought. My meds keep me sane.