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Originally Posted by raspberrytorte
Sometimes I just, I don't know, wonder how I would be if I wasn't taking all these meds. Like, would my personality be different? Would I be more inspired? More creative? Less tired? I asked my husband and he simply said I'd be locked up. I was like, jeez, thanks. Lol.
To clarify, I'm not going off any of my meds... it's just... Sometimes I wonder. Do I really need all of them? What would I be like without them? Would I be the real me? Is the me I am now somehow a false me?
Does anyone else ever wonder this?
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I don't know about every single med I'm on, but I know without any of them I would be putting the insane in "insanely sleep-deprivated sociopathic jailbird who can't think more than 3 seconds into the future." I don't feel much like a person (BPD/CPTSD symptomology) most of the time, but I do feel like I do better at being a person on meds than off. So I can't speak to "what is the true me?" but I can say the best version of a person I can be takes meds.
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