@Mountaindewed I would guess it's more likely you are anxious. You have a big surgery coming up and it's hard to not worry. I had major ankle surgery with 6 weeks of bedrest, 4 weeks with a walking cast and crutches, 6 weeks in a boot and 3 months in a brace. Looking forward at that surgery and what I knew of recovery was so hard. We went to the ocean about 2 weeks before and I spent the whole vacation trying to stay focused on the beach and not what was going to happen.

Maybe try to back off the caffeine pills? they won't help anxiety. You also don't want a caffeine withdrawal headache while you are in the hospital (or ever for that matter). ]

Not sure what the bottom of your post means??? Did you fall asleep on the keyboard?