Hi everyone!

I got into a community services thing this week. Had to be there 4 hours, but I will get at least 1 appointment with a psych + a refill on meds + resources. But they probably will give me psych and case management, so that's good. I have enough meds for 2-3 weeks, so I did this ok.

Still in the studio with my boyfriend. We're doing ok. Not arguing much, but we did have one during which he shut down (I'm pretty sure it started with me saying things "wrong"... not using "I feel" statements, etc.). I can't remember how it went exactly, but I was close to threatening to break up. Not as a manipulation. I think it was more like he was shutting down and I felt scared/helpless and kind of in pain? I wish I could have said that to him instead of being scary/mean.

I have 4+ medication changes a year. Perimenopause is raging - my moods are different now. Worse...

Sometimes I'm doing ok - but the last few years, it lasts a few months if I'm lucky then I'm back to **** this is getting hard again. But you know what? I couldn't end things, whatever many times my brain says I should go... I won't listen. I might as well keep trying!