I have seen tons of doctors the last 40 years and in some of the "best" hospitals in the US. They don't know what they're doing. Johns Hopkins was a complete scam. I don't know why I went there 8 times!
My NP won't listen. I tell her I don't feel anything and feel numb and have trouble enjoying myself and she tells me that's the Depakote and Seroquel doing that and I tell her "No, I've felt like this most of my life when I'm not on meds!". And she tells me that's part of my diagnosis (anhedonia).
I haven't been able to get thru to anyone since 1983 and totally frustrated.