My T doesn't have an analysts couch, but just a regular couch. My first visit I told her I just wanted to lie down and be there and not even talk. I didn't but it is a fantasy I have. Sometimes I think a true 'on the couch' session would be more like the "sessions" I have with her in my head, that free association would be easier if it wasn't face2face, resembling a normal social conversation. But then I do love looking at her, so I don't know how that would feel not seeing her. I think I would be paranoid and worrying about how I was "doing", at least at first.

Good question. You have me wondering if I would have the courage!