So I'm doing a thing, and I know the thing I'm doing is a bad idea but I'm doing it anyway. I cut my loxapine dose in half. Maybe this time I'll be fine.

@LadyShadow

I don't know if this is a good idea or not, but maybe you should cut off all contact with your ex? I'm sure that would be hard. But I think in the long run you'd feel better because you wouldn't constantly be waiting for that phone call.