@LadyShadow

You're not fat and ugly. You're beautiful and quite passionate in your faith, and it may feel like it right now, but you won't be alone forever. I promise. I'm not good at giving advice regarding heart ache, since my husband is the first person I fell in love with and I've never really had any painful breakups. It was always me doing the breaking up.

But remember, this man abandoned you when you were extremely manic and at your worse. That's not good. You don't hold any resentment at all about that? I would (but maybe I'm just a bytch. I don't know). I guess I just think you need to move on. Cut ties. Stop waiting.

I was always told that you marry your best friend. Best friend's don't bail on you when you're at your worst. They build you up.