Good afternoon. I’m just relaxing. Went to the pharmacy today and picked up my meds. I’m glad I switched pharmacies. It took me 30 min to get the bus get my meds and get back home. Normally at the other pharmacy it was a 1 1/2 hour trip at least including a lot of walking. So this is nice. It’s door to door. So the bus picks me up in front of my apartment, drops me off in front of the pharmacy. Then drops me back home in front of my apartment. It’s so much more convenient. Now I don’t have to dread going to the pharmacy all the time.

I slept well last night. Got around 9 hours. Helping my neighbor with some stuff later. Other than that not much planned. Just chilling, watching some anime, Naruto. Feel pretty good so far today.

I seem to have stopped thinking my meds are poisoning me. I haven’t had a panic attack or dissociation in two days. I seem to be doing well in the Lamictal.

Tomorrow I’m doing a grocery order and plan on getting some pumpkin spice creamer [emoji2]

Been working on some assignments in my watercolor class

Really happy with that fidget toy thing. Best $12 I spent recently.

I think if I can learn to cope with dissociation, accept it and not fight it it might make it more tolerable and less likely to induce panic. It might also help me to be able to function during it cause when it happens I end up non functional for the rest of the day and end up spaced out for hours on end unable to do anything

I really need to get a handle on it because I have that 8 week long Nami peer class starting in September and I don’t want to miss any of the classes. I want to complete it and get my certificate. I’m not gonna let dissociation ruin it for me or keep me from going. I refuse to let it control my life anymore.

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