Hi MissCharlotte, yes, I think I will tell him how I felt. For me, it's not so much appearing weak but making myself so vulnerable to him. I would have a hard time just telling him outright, so I'll probably tell him the dream and then we will examine what it means, which is pretty transparent. Through this, we will get to how I feel and why. I have done this before in therapy--used dreams to communicate what was too difficult to tell him directly. If I tell him the dream, I think he will understand how I felt. We haven't done dreams together for a long time....

It is hard to accept how disappointed and sad I felt because of this experience. It foreshadows events in the future, such as termination. If I feel this way now, because of a missed session, how will I possibly endure the pain of never seeing him again? It makes me feel trapped in a runaway car rattling toward the edge of a cliff, and my doom.