My pride, these men,
Have taken it from me.
-Billy Talent



sorry if i don't post much or at all
&
sorry if this gets pulled

if only dad had just killed me when i was born like he did little brother
or if mum had never had me in the first place
that way i wouldn't be so triggered that i spent so bloody long just trying to write this because i'm shaking so bad i tap each key a bunch of times by accident and lose the ability to spell
so triggered past few days, sorry if i don't post, alts have been mostly in control
if dad had done that i wouldn't have to go through this non-stop hell of nightmares and flashbacks and voices in my head and hallucinations
no, he knew he'd have his fun with me only if i was alive, i was born for them to toy with, with their filthy dirty sick twisted hands
& somehow i'm the bad one
stupid bad dirty ugly burden lonely angry sad kid
been so triggered past few days can't talk here
not a survivor
i wish i hadn't survived