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ugh. Sounds like the old "God" issue some docs have. I think his age is a factor in that years ago these docs had a different role in health care; today docs are more like partners in our care, rather than dictators. He sounds like he has some prejudices that are influencing his 'care' of you. I hope you can find someone who appreciates your self knowledge and will work with you the way you. Challenging the way things are is fine and can lead to even better treatments, but the way he takes it personally would infuriate me and make me feel like his issues would interfere in my receiving good care. I would not be going back for a 4th visit.

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Having a "God" complex could be a possibility, but it would have to have been hidden from me really well the first two visits. He certainly never showed this sort of behavior before, and in fact, he was quite a likable older gentleman (or so I thought) at first. I never would have returned had he exhibited behavior like this before. I'm never going back to another visit with him, that's for certain. I think I'm done with PDOCS for awhile, as I can't think of one visit with one that has been very good (although none have ever been as distressing, abnormal, and bad as this one).

I think I can actually handle my anxiety with my T alone at this point, and my T agrees, as the anxiety has lessened over the last week. My T told me that he thinks it highly likely that due to the age of the PDOC in question, and the lack of knowledge even in professionals with adults and ADHD, that the PDOC did not have any training in ADHD, and it is unlikely that he was very educated about it and had a shallow knowledge base about it.

I've never been yelled at or berated by a PDOC (or any doctor) before, but now the challenge is going to be to stay positive about myself, and to not allow myself to become biased against psychiatrists in general now.

I will discuss this with my T next week, as this experience definitely affected me, and is related to some other recent happenings with my asthma. For instance, I have some atypical symptoms of asthma (which my regular pulmonologist is aware of), and when I saw a PA and an ER doc on one occasion recently, they both tried to tell me it was all in my head, and the PA tried to tell me that it was also a sinus infection (it wasn't).
I had an appointment with my pulmonologist after that, and I know it's not all in my head, and not related to a sinus infection. It is very invalidating, frustrating, and condescending to be invalidated just because your issue is more complicated than what they were taught in school. The ER doctor was actually very nice, but aside from the breathing treatment, he also gave me Ativan to settle me down, thinking that the asthma attack wasn't an asthma attack, but anxiety. In that instance, the asthma attack had brought on the anxiety... but his error in thinking was that the Ativan was going to correct the problem.

I appreciate his effort... but still, very frustrating to have this all happen in the week where I saw the senile PDOC. I think he had some type of dementia. Dementia would account for the personality change... otherwise, it's something else, with a little bit of God Complex mixed in. UGH is right.