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Having a "God" complex could be a possibility, but it would have to have been hidden from me really well the first two visits.

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Maybe, or maybe it showed itself when he felt challenged... unworshipped.

I'm glad your T is helpful with the pdoc issue and that your anxiety is better. The experience with the pdoc sounds like it was startling, unnerving. Yelling at a patient is never okay. Not for revenge or vengence, but as a valid concern about his competency, have you considered reporting him to the licensing board? He might need some help deciding it's time to retire.

There are good pdocs out there. I don't have one any longer but the one I had for nearly 10 years was a great guy. Very good listener and valued my self knowledge, was still interested in new findings and new meds, very upbeat and positive we would keep working until we found the meds that helped the most. If I had a problem with a med, like hangover effect that wouldn't lessen or go away and I couldn't deal with, he would find something else or a combination of meds that might work better. He even offered to do therapy with me when I was not happy with my T (the T later was arrested and lost his license for having an affair with his client!). Anyway, my pdoc was a gem and always made me laugh about something during the visit. He ended every visit with a handshake, a smile, and I always left smiling and feeling lighter. There are good pdocs out there, Simcha.

I know some who take some Benadryl (without decongestant) for as-needed help with anxiety. Also, I have been helped with (along with T ) by doing relaxation CD's daily--it helps during anxious times and it helps preventatively too.