Thanks again for answering my questions. It is obvious that I am a bit clueless about this topic. As much as I want to keep this issue to myself, I have to admit that it is adversely affecting both my private and professional life. I think I am just trying to get mentally prepared to broach this topic seriously with my T on Tuesday. Its come up a few times but I don't allow the conversation to stay on it very long.

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It is best if you have a therapist with you, or at least ready to receive a phone call?

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I don't think my T is into the call me if you have a problem thing.

From what you described, I think I've done my own version of flooding. I don't want to continue doing this.

You comment about the different types of fears was interesting. I was thinking primarily about the physical sensation not about who controls it. This clearly demonstrates my ignorance. I think my fear is more comparable to the water analogy than the elevator analogy... Damn...

I just want to be normal ... to chillout.... and have simple an experience without all kinds of noise running though my head wigging me out and taking days to settle myself back down. I know I am being totally ridiculous. This is why I don't like talking about it in therapy, because I know I am being totally irrational. I need to just stop thinking about it, trying to talk about it, rationalize it, understand it, etc,. and just suck it up, DO IT, and get it over with.