Boy, do I know how that feels.....I've done nothing but be paralyzed lately. Today is the best "normal" day I've had in ages and ages........and remember this....we're all smart and we try to intellectualize where we are and we can't wrap our minds around it..so we end up being paralyzed. The smarter you are, the harder it is to handle because you KNOW when it's coming. You hear the whistle, you feel the tracks vibrating and then you see the smoke.....Bam! It's here and there seems to be little that you can do about it. Thanks much for your post. xoxox pat