sweetie i am so sorry this happened to you ...... do you have someone you trust to talk to? do you have a therapist? that is the first step .... you need to sort this out through therapy, talking, maybe writing down things you remember to try and piece it all together .... i wish you luck from a fellow survivor, gentle hugs ... please reach out here too. There are some amazing people here who have been through similar experiences ....

Love, Jinny xoxoxoxo