((Jello))

It is so hard when we lack object constancy, to hold onto T in our hearts.

I had a period of time when it was not clear to me when or if I should call T for support. Frankly, I just had to keep going back to him and discussing the issue. Now, it is consistent and calm. I call when I need him. Period. If he can't call me back, then he has to live with it. (Including fallout from me.)

I told him during one of our ruptures that it didn't matter what arrangements he had with other people, that we had to figure out what was right for us.

PS He always calls me back now. And, you know what? If he is annoyed, I don't care. That's his problem, not mine. He's my T and it is his job to support me when I feel vulnerable, or unstable.

On the other hand, I don't call for things that I can handle myself and I have been working hard to try and take care of things as much as possible. I recognize that he is a person with a family and needs outside of session.