Recently I've been able to overcome a lot of my anxiety, as I saw it for what it was, and I've been able to systemically work through a lot of it. I've never felt like I had to call my T in order to be soothed or feel reassured, other than the one time I needed to call him for advice and for him to reassure me that my decision making process wasn't screwy (a real concern, as I was on new meds at the time which gave me mental confusion). I didn't trust the so-called friends I had at the time with knowing what was best for me either, and my family all live far away from me.

Having no support system to speak of is certainly not easy, MZ. By anxiety attacks, do you mean panic attacks? I know from experience that they are really tough. I even stopped running and exercising for a time when I first developed them, because they raised my heart rate and I didn't want to experience a panic attack. For the most part, my panic attacks have gone away (knock on wood).
With the anxiety disorders I have (GAD and PD w/out Agoraphobia), part of what helped me is to read about it, which I mostly do online. It helped me to understand the unconscious processes so that I could stop them from going into motion. I still struggle with both, but more and more, I recognize out of control, out of proportion anxiety for what it is, before it snowballs.

I think you are just like I used to be, where the anxiety would be so overwhelming it would just snowball, leaving me dysfunctional and feeling like I couldn't cope. I also had no one in my corner at the time either. I understand about having trouble interpreting certain things. My disorders of GAD, and Panic Disorder are on top of ADHD, which is pretty much my baseline.
The GAD and Panic Disorder will go away in time, but the ADHD is there to stay. ADHD can cause a lot of problems with misinterpreting body language and even straightforward seeming statements. For instance, oftentimes I read too much into things that aren't there sometimes, making it more complicated than it really is. Sometimes MZ--a broom is just a broom. Perhaps you also read too deep into things?

I do recognize your catastrophic misinterpretations in what you write... this isn't any different than what I used to do all the time. Rest assured, it is almost never near as bad as we make it out to be, and with a little planning, perhaps we can head off some of the lack of funds that you see in your future.

Here is what I suggest--- either at your next appointment, or prior to that-- call or tell your T that you will have to stop or cut down seeing your T due to your financial constraints. Tell your T that you want to know what he suggests that you do to prevent this. Tell him your personal situation with how your finances are going bad, and exactly why your job situation isn't going to work out and how you will have to leave. Tell your T directly that you want to have a solution to this problem, and if your T doesn't provide any guidance, ask him why he doesn't have a suggestion, why don't you offer a sliding fee, etc. I have learned to be very direct over the years when I need to be, and it has served me well. Let me know how it goes, I really want to know.