I personally do not know what you are going through, but I love someone who does. I feel so bad that you or any other soldier has to go through this. I've always had a soft spot for soldiers (I guess that's why I married one). I don't think to many people realize the side effects of war. I want to know I acknowledge your pain, I know it's real, and wish I could take it away. I don't even know the right words to say to make you feel better. Take care of yourself.