my ground zero - was the day i was born.
my wounds just kept splitting and growing scar tissue till i could not feel them anymore .. and as i grew older .. one by one they would break open ... there really wasnt a healing .. an understanding .. but no real healing process took place. when i am triggered another breaks open .. there are so many i cant keep up with them ... and the cost of trying to talk about it with someone is too much for us. .. feels very hopelesss but their is peace and rest at times ...few and far between but it is there. . isolation for me works most the time to think things out before another trigger takes place.. 50 minutes a week for how long? before these wounds close.... i spose i am counting the cost .. there is just not enough even with insurance to do therapy anymore. .its just the way it is for me . i guess if i was loaded with money ...then i could afford the type of help i need? somethings wrong with that picture ..
i am glad you have found your place of peace and you are moving forward. i hope you continue to grow and find rest.