Hmmmm how am i....

I feel lost in the twisting, ever shifting realities of the alters. It is so tiring. makes me weary. And while I am on a "medication" to ease the anxiety (and supposedly also the depression) i find that it also eases away my sense of... not of self but of that strong ever constant panic that got me to get things done, no matter the toll on the self (mental, emotional, physical). So I can't say which is better.

chaos - utter chaos, yet controlled.