last night i had an awful dream ....

i was at school and desperately trying to get everything together because i was leaving ... just when i thought i had everything packed in my bag there'd be something else ... my mother came to pick me up in a strange looking car with a friend of hers ..... they took me back to the old house i used to live in with my mum and dad before they split up.... my little lhasa apso dog who we lost 2 years ago was there along with the dog we have now.... i wanted to stay with my dad but she wouldn't let me and told me to pack up the stuff from my bedroom.... again there was so much stuff, she was getting impatient and my dad came home crying ....he didn't want me to leave.... i felt this deep sadness, i didn't want to leave him, i felt guilty and started crying, my mother just told me to get over it and get in the car not even allowing me to get the rest of my stuff, she made me leave the dogs and my dad behind ..... these dreams always happen in the house i lived in when the worst abuse was going on ...... my t says houses represent yourself in dreams .... it just really upset me .....

Jin x