I had another nightmare last night about all this. I was lying prone on the table in the middle of class. As the massage started my mind went uncontrollably in to darkness and I couldn't speak to tell the person to stop. Then my body went in to full anxiety mode, hair standing up, hearing/smell/touch amplified, shaking, total muscle rigor. The person just kept going and I still couldn't speak. Then all motor function was lost I was completely paralyzed on the table and nothing but sheer running through my head. When I realized that I completely defenseless I started balling and woke up. I was so freaked out that I couldn't go back to sleep and end up watching George Carlin last night on TV.

I hope this was not some premonition of what is to come and instead some helpful mind processing thing again.