I'm not sure what you're asking, sounds like you feel fine :-) but don't like the way you have coped with things in the past and the anxiety.

One thing that helped me was when my therapist finally got through to me that feelings come and go, if you don't like what you feel now, wait 10 minutes (or hours, days, etc.) and, like weather, it will change. Usually, acknowledging how one feels instead of trying to run from it works better for me. Admit you're anxious and want a drink, smoke, whatever, and the gig will be up on your anxiety trying to make you see it. It's like agreeing with obnoxious people; if you keep saying "yes" or "I see," they have to eventually quit yapping at you because you "agree" with them so they have no argument anymore.

On another board there was a woman whose husband was saying things like, "you're on a diet but there you were grazing" and I told her to just say something like, "Yup, and it was good!" If you know what you're trying to do in your own mind and have your own plan (constant grazing is probably better for her instead of eating big meals AND grazing) then other people and feelings can't sidetrack you as easily. I asked her if she'd mind while driving to the grocery store to shop with her husband if he said, "You went to the store last week and here you are going again".

Check in with yourself every now and then instead of running all the time so you don't know where you "are." Acknowledge you're anxious and then take that to the logical extreme. . . so what? It's just a feeling, not something you're "doing" wrong. It's just information. This is new, hard, and scary for you! (that's the information) Give yourself a pat on the back and think of something saucy to say to your anxiety that will make you smile, "You want a piece of me too?"