Mmm... trouble is that flipping anxiety can mask all other feelings. Sometimes it's helpful to write things down to work out what the true feeling is underneath that anxiety.

As far as I can see you are doing all the right things with trying distractions to get through this. You could try some relaxation, even though you don't feel like doing that, it can be beneficial to take 20 minutes of time, lay down and tense and release each muscle in the body.

Breathing techniques can help with anxiety, put your hand on your stomach and breathe deeply in, counting to two and then breathe out the same way, for ten minutes. If your breathing is really to pot a paper bag is helpful, breathing into it steadily.

I know this stinks but give yourself a pat on the back for coping!

(((((((((( earthmama )))))))))