ok, ive been in denial, i am an alcoholic:
i am powerless over alcohol and my life became unmanageable!
I have relapsed, but with each relapses i get to step three and go back to one. but i learnt from this. I have got a job passed my theory test and been a better mum to my daughter since my last drink only one week ago, and dont want to stay on step one. I have a lot of issues and the steps help with this.
now i want to continue with this sobriety thing, and feel i can apply these steps to helping patients, especially with terminal illness. The core theme of this is to acceptance.
If you can accept you have something wrong (alcoholism is an illness too which should have less stigma) then you can go on a spiritual journey to ease the suffering, and stop negativy, blame and fear. I am scared without the alcohol numbing emotions, but it beats the anxiety and self loathing after a drink. i hope others will trust me and respect me.
it takes a strong person to admit their defeat, but a stronger person to overcome this.
I believe noone is a bad person, they are just misunderstood. and in developing an understanding we can then be true and find the goodness and serenity to live a fulfilled life.
i have had to hand my problems over to faith that it will work out in the end, one day at a time they say, and theyre right. i used to live in the past, ot project to the future, but the present, ended up being a blackout. now i choose to go 24 hours without a drink, and if i do then it has go to reap benefits in the end.
dont expect it to happen istantly, learning the hard way that patience is a virtue, which i must believe.
sobriety is the most important thing as without this i will surely lose everything in the end.