I dont seem to fit in anywhere. I dont even know who I am. Its like one day I woke up andI had PTSD. All I did my whole life was try and live. Now I have hardly any friends. I am constantly puking from stress. The only people that understand me are my therapists. I dont know how to fit in anywhere. Even with people who have the same dx as me. Real people scare me and on line I dont feel like people like me either. For three hours a week I am with people who understand me, but make me work hard. SO even if they get me they still have a job to do. I would very much like to sit by someone who just lets me be. I hate myself today. I dont know why. I think its because I cant seem to connect to anyone. You may think I wrote this to have people say hang in there. However dont bother. I guess u can say I am feeling sorry for myself but thats not true I am feeling hatred for myself and its toxic. Does anyone understand what I am saying?